Sib's Happy Fun Pigbook

[Sibilya]

Mmkay, I'm going to repost what I have so far, since I don't want to "start" at Week 3. That'd make it all.. lopsided.. bleh.

Well, it's pretty lopsided already, but that's just since Sib is special and likes to write like that - especially when she is angry.

OOC UPDATE ZOMG: I won't be posting every day, since they are pretty short. I'll just keep editing posts, and I'll have one post per week. ENJOY

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W E E K O N E - Death, Lies, Hatred, and Fleas
Day 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5

This has not been a very super week. To start it off, we had another meeting - on a rock. It would have been a little fun if it wasn't so serious, or the fact that Zorto was there.

He lied to everyone's faces - and they all believed him. Again.

Leaving? Pff. Hiding. I scared him off.
But that's okay, since I have a plan. You won't tell anyone, will you, Daisy Daybook?
I love you, Daisy. Oh wait, no. I don't. You could be Zorto, too.

I don't trust you enough just yet, Daisy. No plan for you. You could be Zorto, too.

I'm thinking about going to Undercity in a bit, since I don't think letting Zorto get far would be too good.

<the scribe from here on becomes slashy and messy, obviously quickly and angrily written. (red text)>

Parchment cannot lie, but I know you can, Daisy. You're lying to me, now.

Right now.

And now.
aN D NO W.

Now too, so stop before I hurt you.

You are hiding things from me, Daisy. Just shut up.

Moving on, y ou are a disgusting, sickening cretin.
But you aren't lying right now, so I will continue.

People are fools. All of them. That "general" had thought attacking some weakling night elves was of higher priority than scouring Zorto from everything that exists. And everything that doesn't.

The spiral of bad judgement will continue until
end.
By the claws of Zorto, obviously.

I merely give him advice, the stupid thing would wither away without it.

He might be gone now, too.
He might.

I hear you now, Daisy. Asking me why I stain your filthy pages with scribbles instead of looking for Zorto. Good question.

You aren't allow to know the answer.

They all refused me, the devilish spider-hatchings they are.
They'll be convinced eventually.

On a lighter note, I saw Baby Sin earlier this week. I think.
Sin is becoming increasingly cruel. I would tell the girls about how Baby Sin was practically in tears during the heartfelt conversation I had with her about how Sin made her angry and sad, but Zorto is much more important than Sinfael's uh ohs.

Py is off somewhere, I should remember, but in truth I don't want to.
I didn't see Oni. I don't want to see Oni.
I didn't see Roo. I don't want to see Roo.

I can't hear you anyways, Daisy. No sense lying now.

Erelle has been quite uncaring. Usually she would even talk to me, but earlier it was shock and then

complete uncaring. Hmph.

Helus has fleas, I'll bet, since I saw Zorto in his fur. Fleas.
Bugs.. speaking of bugs, Sael is the love-child of a spider
and Zorto.

I met some new people recently. I hate them all. And I hate you too, Daisy.

I'll write again soon, maybe. If you promise not to lie again. Else, I might have to bite off a page or two.

<the next seven pages are ripped out>

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Day 6

<the writing has seemed to return to Sibilya's regular print>
I have made a mistake, Daisy. I lost sight of my goal today. Poor me. I'm sad.

It won't happen again, if I can help it. It looks like the week is ending, I am a terrible person. I hate myself. Have I told you that lately?

It is very difficult to write. Especially when I am tormented with such intensity. By you, Daisy! You hurt me. You are saying I'm useless too. Just like them.

I'm "useless" because It has almost been a week, and the shadow is still loose? You know I hate this, why do you pour salt over my bloody wounds? Why? It burns enough without your dirty words.

Oh, and I found out that the general has passed. Repassed, I should say. Or it might be rerepassed. Has he died previously? I should think. A funeral! In Brill, was it? I hope he isn't buried in MY grave. That would be most unpleasant. A rotting corpse... near my body! Spine-chilling. At least, if I had one.

But, we shouldn't be mean to poor Mesoni! He was just misguided. But he did ignore my warning. Not very good, no, no. No, no, no. No sense crying over spilt blood. Unless it's my blood.

Milk is another thing altogether. If Mes spilt some milk, that would be very tragic. Poor Mes! I wonder if he ever spilt milk.. I'm sure he has. He looks like the type of person to have suffered through milk-spilling. Or he looked that way, at least. I might go to the funeral, if only to ask if he has spilt milk before.

What is that, Daisy? You ask me: "What're we gonna do tommorrow night, Sib?"? Other than maybe going to the funeral, there is only one other possibility.

The same thing we do every night, Daisy. Try and stop Zorto from taking over the world!!

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Day 7

Daisy. I did it again. Once I reached the Brill Graveyard, the goal was barely visible. I'm losing it. I can't! I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I have to keep going. I HAVE TO KEEP GOING.

And even now you taunt me with your eyes, Daisy. Staring through me, just like everyone else. Thinking I'm useless. I have to keep going, or I'll be transparent forever.

It was so sobby at the funeral. It is just another stage, and if they all truly cared they would have let him go.

You can shed tears that he is gone
or you can smile because he has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see him
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember him and only that he's gone
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what he'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

So shut up and stop crying, it's starting to bother me.

[Sibilya]

W E E K T W O - Heartlessness and some funny Hats
Day 1 - 2

It happened again, and I still hate you, Daisy.

But I hate someone more! Sael, yes. Yes. He is cruel, insensitive, barbarous, heartless, hateful, sinful, spiteful, heartless, disgusting, maleviolent, heartless, merciless, evil, heartless, harsh, sadistic, heartless, unfeeling, unkind, sulky, heartless, unnatural, heartless, monstrous, heartless, painful, brutal, untamed, barbaric, heartless, foul, feral, hurtful, heartless, savage, slaughterous, heartless, savage, heartless, vicious, heartless, bad.

Daisy, if you see him, spray ink all over his face. I know it is the right thing to do. He is crazy, insane. He's just like a boar, with a funny hat that has bathed in hatred for seven years and fourteen months. Heartless!

He works for Zorto. I knew that since I met him, since he is so ugly. He is gross. Doesn't he look EXACTLY like a spider? Probably from his mother's side. Gross gross.

This is going to be short today, since I need to keep looking. I'll make a list!
Lists are gross. SO
I've been to Stormwind. I scared a cow! I saw Zorto too, but he hopped away.
Darnassus - nobody was there, so I talked to a weird circle globe thing for a while, but all it made was some twinkling sounds. I saw Zorto in a tree, but he flew away.
At the Exodar, I was chased around by some draenei. I made one trip, ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. I saw Zorto there too.
Orgrimmar - I chased a troll on some of the roofs, it tried to throw an axe at me. Didn't work, eheh! I saw Zorto, but he ran off.
In the Undercity I couldn't find him at all, but he might have been hiding in the water. It's so gross that I didn't go in it, but I will next time. In Ironforge I looked all over. I even went in the lava and stuff. Wasn't there. I went to Aerie Peak, and I couldn't find him there either. I saw some high elves. I went to Gadgetzan and some raceway in some desert, they both had no Zorto. Or so it seems..! I 'll go back later. I went to Thunder Bluff early on, but h e was not there. Unless he was hiding in a drum. In Gnomeregan there was hardly anything other than ugly gnomes and stuff. I KNOW I saw Zorto there, though. I probably scared him out.

I NEED YOU TO BE QUIET OR I WILL PAINT YOUR COVER PINK, DAISY. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HATE PINK AND I AM WILLING TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT WEAKNESS. AHAHAHA. AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. WHO IS LAUGHING NOW, DAISY?! HRM?! CAN'T TAKE THE HEAT?! GET OUT OF THE KITCHEN, SISTER.

See you later, Daisy! I need to go look in Silvermoon more. Can you believe how many times he has been sighted there?! I just KNOW he is somewhere.. Bye, Daisy!

-Love, Sib. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Day 3

Hey Daisy. I forgive you. You forgive me? That's great. Here, I will give you eyes. AND A NOSE LOOK.

(THESE FORUMS SCREWED WIFF MAI EYES)
<some crudely drawn, dark eyes are sketched, with a large pig nose underneath>

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. See?! T hat is for all those cruel, heartless things you said and implyed with your glares. Now you are a pig. PIG PIG. PIGBOOK, rather.

Yes, your new name is Daisy Pigbook. Forever. Hahah. See? I'm laughing. Heartily. Some would call it a guffaw. Others would think I am giggling. Or chuckling! Ahahahahaha! Or cackling, yes.

Oh, yes, Daisy. Have you seen Zorto? I could have swear he came in here. Of all the places, he would hide in MY HOUSE?! On the name of the Dark Lady, he is the most stupid evil thing I've ever met.

Even his name is dumb. "Zorto". It sounds like crying babies and famine. Crying baby famine. Dirty crying baby famine. Dirty sad crying baby famine. Dirty sad pathetic crying baby famine. Dirty sad pathetic horrible crying baby famine. DIRTY SAD PATHETIC HORRIBLE HEART LESS CRYING babyFAMINE.

Those babies cry because they saw how ugly Zorto is too. He is gross.
AND HE LIKES SPIDERS.

I know it. Do you know it? Yes.

DID YOU HEAR THAT?!! Oh, no, you don't have ears. Here..

<some primitive, clearly piggy ears are drawn>

Ha hahah pig ears. But, wait. I heard Zorto. Over there. Look at it. Doesn't it look evil? It's all... shelfy.. and it is holding books. Books of evil. I never had books!!! Oh, wait, that's Pyr's. I'll bet it is evil. It's probably zorto. Seen an axe around? I need to stop Zorto's reign from engulfing the globe. Be back later! Maybe Calag has an axe I can use. Oh! I can't hold an axe yet. Or anything that heavy. Damned banshee training.

I even tried manipulating people earlier, and not ONE of them did what they were supposed to and think Takaii was ugly. They were all "Oooh, he is hooooot!" and I wasn't supposed to make them think that. RRRRRR! I did getone girl to think red was the best colour, but she was either really stupid or liked red beforehand.

Well, I better go train, then. Maybe tomorrow I can carry an axe or make people think Takaii is ugly! Or something other than a pen, and maybe just that red is a nice colour.

Because red IS a nice colour.

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Day 4

This is short I'm busy quiet down. I found a note here today - says that Pyr and Novaas left, went to some stupid land of the Dragonhawks or whatever. Quel'Something.

Unimportant - I must find Zorto.

And Daisy, did you hear Erelle? She said there were fates worse than death - I know! This is a fate worse than death. Tormented and forced to suffer through this sickening unlife, made to spend eternity destroying Zorto. But it needs to be done.

And when I do finish, everyone will say:

"Sib! You are not useless! We love you!"
"Daisy is dumb, you are pretty!"
"Go Sib, Zorto is dumb!"
"Finally, someone destroyed Zorto! We hated him forever."
"I love you, Sib!"

And I will be happy, normal, and back in my pretty body.

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Day 5

Daisy.

I'm getting tired.

Which is impossible, seeing how I don't have a body to tire. But even so, I am bored of looking. How about I take a little break? Just a small one? I miss Ere being nice to me. I don't think she likes me anymore.

Maybe Zorto did leave? Perhaps I have been wrong?

Maybe I need to stop?

M a yb yn ds gtfgd b ccvB b B b hahahaha

<the rest of the page has been covered in deep, black, dried up blood, obviously not Sibilya's, as she has none to spill>

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(I felt the need for more serious writing, so I'm currently writing a little story about my other characters that are always hidden. ^.^ Sib's in it a little, though. So that is the reason for the semi-shorter days. IC excuse: "Busy looking for Zorto!")

Day 6
<the scrawl has returned to it's shakey, hastily written slashes>
Daisy

diasy f
u
'vec seen him again daasy he was over in silvrgmn
City, in the Bazaar. On the bench near the fountain.
i saww hrm sn his wife they were there......
Talking. In disgusting and sickening tongues, I couldn't
udersteand tem but I was able to see them levf
towards the exit to Undercity. I knew it. They were going to Scholomannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn'
and were going to let out the dragons - i saw it first.
That was the first of my dreams.
Som eone wou ld die
And I really
th ink it
w as
me.

SEe, it works, daasy, i'm dead so someone died
someone died that was me
it was
and it was zorto fault
dragons
let
out
i'll go now, an see an stop an kill him
i smell him
want to come, dasy? tes yiy do

<at the bottom of the page, in fancy writing is simply:>

We go tomorrow.

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Day 7

There was a meeting and
it was a meeting and
it was not fun meeting and
it did not do anything
to help
me

So i went to shohhhhohh mans
i did
i did and i found him
i did
i did and i killed him
i did
i did and i smote him off this world
i did
i did but he isn't gone
i did
i did and he still lingers
i did
i did in my heart
i did
i did in my soul
i did
i did in my mind - in my fear
i did
i did his cackles still echo
i did
i did through my mind
i did
i did through my spirit
i did
i did i'm never coming back
i did
i did never
I DID I did it, daisy
I DID mee
I DID Sib, the useless one
I DID the unsoldier
I DID the annoying one
I DID i got him good
I DID but
I DID maybe he isnt gone
I DID but
I DID I hear him still - he is still here
I DID never left
I DID i was wrong
I DID again

wrong
again
wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong useless wrong wrong

when will this torment end
when
will
it
end
and
when will I be right again
when will I cease being wrong
when will I be a use

never

[Sibilya]

W E E K T H R E E - Goodbye and Goodbye and Hallo
Day 1

so
i heard
yo u
are
zzzzzzZ
sleep
sleep

Z
sleep
Z
sleep beccase

when you mix in zorto
with anything
you die
and fall asleep
forever

understand ? zorto
zughbrwyuyuhjkb
uy

Why didn't he die? I saw him..
I saw the Death Knight too.
Fighting. And then the shadow disappeared.
Where did he go?
I think he is still there
in his special land of void
of hate
of void
and of death

They say they would kill him if I find him
But I can't find him until he is dead
and so i am stuck
trapped
gone

They all dont trust me
they trust my body, dont they
they do
Zorto doesnt
he expects it
or he doesnt
expect it

I met ruthven today
it just reminded me of what i miss
home - family - walking around
but the darkness took that
Zorto took that
far
from me
and from everyone
that ever existed

I don't think I exist anymore, though
Not until he is gone forever

OK
I need to take a break
but do they agree?
I needed to take a break
I will say
So I did
And then I will be good
ready
to stop him forever
Raskaljvar fell, i should think
impurity won
sadness is a feeling a feel right now, i remember when zorto
disappeared
that one time

yes

i need to continue to help the world with stopping zorto
world

I just remembered
I possessed by body earlier, when i talked to Ruthven
I forgot about him
It is strange, calag never mentioned him
strange
strag ne g ween e ne

Speaking of caLag, i possessed him enough to get him
to stop lying for a second
he said i was craz
y

i know Ruthven wask thihhking it too
and ere and oni and sael and everyone
they all think i'm not in my right mind
i think they are all just trying to pretend that they
were never tricked by Zorto, since they are all very
insecure
poor people
Maybe when I save them they will see their errors
and i will forgive

I am very forgiving
i might forgive them in time
if they stop being such imbeciles
and love me like they should


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Day 2

I think, I might be losing my mind.
Just a bit.

Since all of this work. I feel like I am my own slave, forced to walk, wander and search aimlessly.

It doesn't matter, though
I have enough time

Void might wither, but I won't
ever.

I'm facinated with Ruthven
so strange
I forgot about him completely
and he was with that Tranquillien person
under Lordaeron?
Why..?

Why?

And he tried to lie to me - told me Zorto was near.
Tried to make ME think Zorto was down in the Undercity
I would hae believed him if I hadn't finally finished my training
at least in that
respect.

I might not be able to take minds over, but I can sense lies.
And alot of people lie to me
alot
so i will stop them
and if they lie, i will know they are enemies

and myabe
then

people will stop lying
and people will start
to help me stop him
And then everhy wh d4hd one will understand
and they will thank me for my efforts
but i know
inside
i'll still be dead

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Day 3

Hey.
I was over in Everlook, that trashy Steamwheedle outpost, right? And I saw him. Yep. He was in the guise as a goblin priestess. Stupid fool. Thinking that just because he looked like a female, I wouldn't notice? It is a good thing I was able to find that box of knives.

I just waited until he walked outside the outpost, I appeared and sliced it's head off. Such as shame, Zorto left the body just as I killed it. I saw him enter the body of a Everlook guard, next. I had to kill him too.

They had maces, they tried to bash me. It was silly, really. Zorto really though that turning Everlook against me would do anything? Their rocks phased through me, stupid slaves.

So I had to kill a bunch of them. Some stupid citizens broke free of his forced rage. He must be getting weak! Yes, they ran. Hid behind some silly Argent Dawn emissaries.

Didn't bother touching them. I floated a bit over the macabre painting their blood created, and wandered over to where I saw Zorto disappear into.

It was a long road, but at the end I finally found him. He hid behind some stupid demonic warrior or something. I saw a mountain behind him! I knew he was going to go hide there. But I forgot my knives! Rr. So frustrating!

So I had to leave. I eventually made it home. I'm angry. Oh, look. A map, Daisy! She must be your cousin. And my, isn't she much more prettier?

Look at these fine details. Much prettier. And your cover is pink! Ahahaha!

Oh, Mount Hyjal? He must be there. Or maybe he's trying to fool me.. maybe he is hiding somewhere else. Plotting. Maybe he's gone to... the night elf city in Azshara? I know he has to be there. It's the only place ever. And I bet he's making the night elves or naga or whatever hate me.

When I get there, they'll need to die. Unless he isn't there.. maybe he went to Silvermoon? Maybe everyone in Silvermoon hates me? What if Oni hates me? That won't be good. I'd feel a little uncomfortable digging my sharp knife through her pretty forehead! Oh well.

I'll get over it!

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Day 4-5

Hey Daisy
guess where i was today
and yesterday?

hahaha i'm laughing at this right now
you are too
because it's funny
i was over in theramore
you know
that pretty city??
Yeah, i was there
Zorto was controlling everything! it wasscary a litl

hah
but thats okay
i killed everyone in the small outposts
they were under his influence
poor little people
and anyways, I was over there yes
and I saw some boats coming in
I knew Zorto was on one, so i had to stopthem
and then i saw a zeppelinfly overhead
i had to stop it
so i decided, let's kill them!
and i did

<a large sketch of a happy smiley face is drawn>
;D

and you know what happened that was funny ? ?
someone came and looked at me and ran back
it was an orc
hahaha
and he happened to be a drawererdesr a guy who draws tings
because he drew my face
on a poster!!
and he went to silvermoon
and he put up the poster
with some angry writing
about me being evil
so i followed him home, turns out he lives near Warsong Gulch
and i had to kill him
he had a child too
i killed the child too
and his wife
because they worked foir zorto !

when will people ever learn?
may be never
oh well
i guess they goota die two right
yep
oh well
goodbye daisy, i think i'll be gone for a bit
i gotta look for zorto even harder
even harder than before
because i am always seeing corpses and angry people
so it must be zorto's doing
hahahahahahaa
mmkay
bye

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Day 6

I took a break earlier today
i'm glad none of the sisters saw
it's not allowed, i was supposed to burn my body
but i said i burnt mine, but i hid it
hehe
and today i possessed it
i'm glad i was able
now it'll just be a few weeks of training and
i can possess others
of course, they have to have like the spirit of a gerbil
at first

heeheeheeheehee

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Day 7

takaii lied
haaa
its kind of pathetic
zorto is working takaiis small teeny mind
and he is trying to turn the tide in his favour
but he should know that everyone believes me
didnt you hear how they said theyd help???
yeah
they will help
but i just gotta find him

hmmm
where is roo anyways?
i dunno
silly silly roo
oh no what if zorto took roo oh no
i can't believe this
i bet he used takaii to take roo
oh no
and maybe he is going to use roo to attack me
oh no
and then ere
and oni and people like that oh no

daisy i'm scared
shut up
oh okay
yeah he does need to die
hm
wheres my sword?
hm
lets just take another
from where
i don t now
maybe from takaii
how very fittingly ironic
heee

oh well

[Sibilya]

W E E K F O U R - Getting Kinda Bored of Death
Day 1

It is so irratatingly ironic.

The dreams I live with would stop when Zorto is gone.
And constantly I am bombarded with that dream I saw earlier.
At the Scholomance, about the Scholomance. About someone dying. I didn't see blood, but someone died. Someone female, I saw. It was going to be Oni, I could feel it. And that dream has still yet to come into effect.

Oh, but yes, the next part of the dream I saw dragons flying above a destroyed Silvermoon. They were sickly, plagued and disgusting.

Finally I saw a crossbow and it's holder. Zorto made me think it was Markus, but how should I know? It was dead - that is for sure. And under it was ice. I slipped past as it aimed the crossbow at me. He shot, and I woke up.

Ugh, and later on the ice began appearing in the other parts. I saw Oni sliding on ice as well, and then Silvermoon covered in ice with dragons on top. I saw Pyr and Novaas trapped in ice, and I saw Calag and Ere in the jaws of some dragon. And sometimes I would see people like Mesoni being shot at - instead of me.

It was frightening. Even now, being dead, I get chills. And it is so ironic, as I was saying.

I try to keep my goal in sight, but every single time I slip. I slip on the approaching ice, the enevitable chills, the true cold. I keep slipping every time my eye wanders. I bore so often.. goodness.

I just wish I could find Zorto.
I just wish that people would actually help.
I just wish that this torment might soon end.

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Day 2

All is wrong
Zorto thinks he could trick me
He came, told me in whispers that Pyr and Novi had left me
he said they went to some island
oh yes
Quel'Danas
whatever
i dont knowwhat to do
i dont care about them, i need to find zort
But it is my family.
But zorto might noit be here
But he might too.
i need tolook more
But they might be in fatal danger
so what
zorto needs
to be stopped
stop it
stop
ok
a oh wait
i have an idea haha
heehee
this is funny
i'll be back later to tell you, daisy
bye heeeheee

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Day 3

i dont feel like talking today
i dont feel like myself
ugh
i dont know what to do im soreally annoyed

i think ill just stand here for a while
and maybe have some cookies
and milk'
i kile milk, heehee

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Day 4-7

so busy lately
i can sense doom approaching
thoruhg what form? i dont know
but hes around here somewhere.
i went to Ratchet, killed some more goblins
Zroto likes goblins
and i went to tinker town
heeheehee
silly gnomes
and some other places
i forget what they were called
but i kill them too
i just need to find takaii heehee
and maybe some others
oh this is so funny
i love it
but i miss family
both netherbright and mine
i'm sighing right now
sigh
sigh

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[Sibilya]

W E E K F I V E - Untitled
Day 1

I think I have no more use
not for me
not for you

its clear to me that my opinion doesnt matter
I expected most people to ignore me
but not Ere
never Ere
ever

But its true
she did
but I guess somewhere inside me I already felt it
I felt my unimportance


I dont really feel hate anymore
I dont really feel a care
Why should I try and save those who would call me useless?
Save Ere now?
When I have been shown such hatred?
I refuse
I'm chasing shadows, literally
why should it matter to me? I have an escape
others do not
well
it's really too bad now
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

This, is my final entry
my final everything
i'm going to give you to Oni or someone, Daisy
we've had some good times
but I think
I think i'm done until Zorto is gone
whether that will take 10,000 years or 1,000,000 years
is not up to me
but oh well

i feel empty
really empty
so maybe when the month is over
zorto will be
and then i can hang out with my friends
and erelle will be normal i hope
what shall i call this month?
i shall call it Sib month
and during Sib month, there is no Zorto
ok

ok

starting now

ok!!!

[Sibilya]

Final Entry

Hey, Daisy. Looking back at this continues to cause me grief and anger, but I think it's worth it. I need to say goodbye, to you and Onika. I hope you are happy with her, though I guess I know you are.

Daisy, the times with you created just as much sanity as insanity, but at least it was something to have as an outlet. You helped during the deepest parts of my insanity, and I thank you for that.

Oni, I don't know where you were, but I know I am glad you weren't there.

I'm dead.

I have little spirit left, it's dying just as I had. I'm laughing and crying here, reading what I had written before, knowing how much I deserved death. No, knowing how much I didn't deserve death.

I deserved much worse.

Anyways, I need to go soon, so I just wanted to tell you how much I love you. You're the best friend and healer I ever knew, and I looked up to you. Tell Erelle I'm sorry. Tell everyone I'm sorry. Ask them to not blame me, would you? It won't mean anything soon, but I don't want to be hated either way.

I'll miss you, and everyone else. Thank Sael for me, I think I'm finally free of the fear, the guilty and the worry.

Bye.

-Sib

*a half heart drawing is on the bottom of the page, clearly unfinished yet very intricate and well drawn*